Completely forgot to say: Take the MCAT... again. Yes, today marked the second time that I took that test. What more can I say other than I'm happy to have left the lifestyle I have been living for the past few months and return to my abnormal one.
As I've told a few of you who have taken the time to listen and ask about my plans and thoughts these past few weeks, today marked an immense fork in the road of my life. How I did today could potentially mean the difference between the life I thought (and maybe still think) I have wanted for the past 8 years and a new path that I am equally excited to pursue. And for now, that's all I will say.
a pile of study aids...rest are still on dining table
One thing is for certain however, I have learned A LOT! And I'm not talking only about stereochemical characteristics, electric fields, passage analysis, oxidation potentials and hormonal regulation. Sure, I've definitely learned that stuff, but here's what else I've learned:
1. I've learned to look deeper into myself. Really question my goals, my thoughts, my future. For the longest while, my mind has been set on being a doctor. But what about my feelings? Surely, just as I have grown up from that Freshman in High School Biology, have my goals as well? Somewhere along this studying I needed to ask myself whether I really want to go to medical school? And the thoughts that started pouring out completely caught me by surprise. I've never known what it was like to be an adult, to think this hard and deep about my future, until these past months. Um, emotional roller coaster much?
2. I've learned (or rather reinforced my belief) that I have hugely supportive friends (whom I will affectionately call my extended family). You know who you all are. Simply amazing. Speechless.
3. I've learned it's not the end of the world if this test should score poorly. There! I said it. Took me a good while to get to that point and still my confidence in that statement wavers. I'm getting there.
4. I've learned that I utterly love learning. I can't imagine a lifestyle where I'm not thinking academically or intellectually and challenging myself.
5. I've learned that my mind doesn't shut off when I'm doing all this learning. Can't tell you the amount of nights I went to bed at 10 only to fall asleep at 3, 4, 5am...it SUCKS. Although..I'll take sleep deprivation to appendicitis any day.
And now...with this task complete and my life back on its dysfunctional track...I'm ready to start completing some more goals!! WOOHOOO! I imagine my next task is fighting with the Rubix cube...almost there...I anticipate a post on that soon.
Catch y'all on the flip!
P.S. Several of you have commented on the list. If you are doing any of what I plan to and want some company...Holla atcha girl! And if you are interested in knowing my plans...lemme know.
I believe after all the studying that has claimed your life, you shouldn't worry so much about results but look at the fact that you've been able to apply yourself solely to just activity and applied yourself so strongly to it. That should definitely give you an idea of how good you can be at anything if you just give that much effort and persistence to it.
ReplyDeleteLooks like you've been reflecting on the flow chart... Congrats on the completion of MCAT round 2!
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